Goals

This past year has been a rough one to say the least.  I never even think about my hip anymore, it’s like it was never hurt.  I am so glad I had the surgery to fix it, and do not regret it one bit.

I was talking to my Feldenkrais instructor about my goals and what I wanted to do once my ankle heals.  The only thing that physically hurt me when I started running again were my feet going numb, which is due to my extremely tight calves.  Other than that, running was going great.  Cardiovascular-wise I was holding in there, doing longer bouts of running, doing hills, and sprints.

I never really thought that I would want to do a marathon.  I am happy with doing half marathons.  Heck, I would be happy to do a 5k right now, but I’m thinking about in the future.

My feldenkrais instructor overcame a huge disability, doctors saying she wouldn’t walk and now she runs ultra marathons, and places in them.  If that isn’t motivation enough that you can do anything you set your mind to, I don’t know what is!

In the near future after my ankle heals and I’m cleared to workout besides doing upper body and core, I want to get back to running (obviously).  I have a couple of personal training sessions at the gym I still need to do, and I would like to get back to my yoga, cycling, and weight lifting.

In the distant future, I want to set my body up and be well prepared to start running half marathons again.  I want to eventually do at least ONE marathon after tackling a few half marathons.

People don’t understand me, at least the people who aren’t runners or want to be active.  I somewhat get it, I mean someone actually wants to sweat and run when nobody is chasing them?  I look forward to the day when I can get up at 6:00am on a Saturday or Sunday morning and run with my fellow Landrunners or run at 6:00pm on a Thursday night in the hot & humid weather of Oklahoma with the Red Coyote people.  I had started doing that, along with running Tuesday evenings at the OKC River with some awesome running folk.

For about 3 days after I broke my ankle, I was wallowing in my sadness.  I just couldn’t understand why these things kept happening, why couldn’t it happen to someone who hates working out?  I was bitter (again).  I decided to look at things in a different way.  Things can always, ALWAYS be worse. This is just another hurdle in life that I have to jump over, and hopefully not break anything else while doing so.

Look to the future.  Have a plan.  Work It Out.

I can move beyond this and get stronger.  I will.

Spiders, Voodoo, and Independence.

Wow.  I’m a little behind on my blog.

I bought a house, and I love it.  However, I haven’t even stayed one night in it yet, but I’ll get to that eventually.

Running or my run/walking was going really well.  I was able to do strength stuff, I was getting my running legs back and all was well.  Both of my hips have been rocking it and all was right with the world.  Until…

I believe things happen in threes, for some reason I’ve seen it happen time and time again.

I had closed on my house and it went smoothly.  The sellers I had were great and they even left me cookies and a card.  The next day we moved everything in, however so many things in my storage were covered in spiders.  These tiny spiders inhabited every crevice available in my furniture, boxes, everything.

I was so overwhelmed with the huge feat of killing the spiders.  Later that night I somehow locked myself out of my new home and I had to call a locksmith at 9:30pm from my neighbor’s house.  I was so stressed about it, but what could I do?

 

Two days later, I was finishing moving the rest of my things out of my friend Jessica’s house.  I step out into the garage, but I must’ve stepped wrong because I fall and feel/hear a loud snap.  Horrific pain shoots around my ankle/leg and I just started crying.  Luckily Jessica was upstairs, but as I was yelling her name in the garage she couldn’t hear me.  I couldn’t walk, so I had to crawl into the kitchen and yell for her.  She finally heard me and ran downstairs.  I crawled to the couch and we elevated and iced it immediately.  Every time I would move it I would feel crunching.  I knew it was bad, but debated on whether to go to Urgent Care just yet.  I tried putting weight on it, but it hurt so we went to Urgent Care.

They took some X-Rays and originally he said it looked like a possible fracture to the talar dome bone.  He put me in a walking boot and told me to follow up with an orthopedic specialist.  They called me back later to tell me the radiologist read it and said I definitely fractured my distal fibula.  I stayed at Jessica’s because I couldn’t drive and get around very well.  Life looked very bleak.  I had just gotten my life back and able to work out after my hip surgery and this happened.  I wallowed in the depths of sadness until my ortho appointment yesterday.

I was expecting the worst.  I was afraid I wasn’t going to be able to work, drive, and possibly have surgery.  The ortho said that I tore my ligament and fractured my distal fibula.  I have to start PT twice a week and I wear the walking boot at least for 6 weeks.  She said I could still work, starting this Friday and I could drive too.  She said it’d be a while before I could run again, but hopefully I could get back to working out somewhat soon.

I’m glad I can work and I don’t have to use crutches, but this thing will be my best friend for awhile….bootphoto

 

Here’s a view of my cankle. It’s actually not as swollen and bruised as you would think.anklefibula

Maybe that means it will heal quickly and I can bounce right back into working out really soon.  Whoever is doing a Voodoo doll against me, I cry Uncle!  I’m done!  Please?

I’m Running! Sort of…

It’s been harder for me to update lately since life has been so busy.  I know, I say it all the time.

 

I still haven’t found a house.  There have been a couple of offers put in, but nothing.  I’m hoping there will be some good ones come up in the area I want soon.

 

I have actually tried running and it hasn’t gone badly.  I’m really surprised, although I’ve been taking it super slow and safe.  I’m doing the couch to 5k, but in a very slow fashion.  My operated hip has been doing wonderful,  I don’t notice it.  The other one has been giving me trouble intermittently, but I believe that Feldenkrais has helped me immensely.  I quit MAT a few weeks ago.  It was getting expensive and I felt I was getting more benefits from Feldenkrais.

 

Even though life has been so hectic, I am so happy I have been able to workout and begin running.  I feel like my old self again.  For the past 2 years or longer since my injury and through my surgery, it has been depressing.  Some of it was contributed to relationships I chose to have in my life, a lot of it was due to me being nice and trying not to hurt feelings.  Sometimes you don’t realize you’re miserable, until you’re not anymore.

I’m ready to get back into running 100% and hopefully not have to have surgery on my other hip.  September 2014 will be 1 year since my surgery, and I have come SO far, it’s amazing.  If you’re looking to have this surgery, it’s worth it.  Just find the right surgeon and do your research.

Also, I’ve still been doing paleo for about 3 months now.  It has definitely made a difference in how I look and feel mentally & physically.  I hope to continue to follow the paleo lifestyle 80/20, as it’s been working so far!

Other Hip Update

I’m a bit late on this update, a week late to be exact.

I went to see Dr. Nho in Chicago for my 6 month post op (technically I’m at 8 months now.)  My right hip is really doing great, I don’t even think about it anymore.  My left one (the non-operated hip) has been aching and giving me fits intermittently so I had a MRA done while I was up there.

Unfortunately things weren’t clear cut and my surgeon isn’t knife happy, so he doesn’t want to do surgery unless my pain interferes with my work and everyday activity.  It’s not that bad… yet.  The MRA showed a probable partial tear on the left, but nothing big.  My bone structure is the same on the left as right, so he said there could be some impingement going on.  He did a physical exam on my left hip, twisting & moving it in all sorts of ways.  It produced no pain.  I did receive some numbing medicine along with the dye in my joint, so he doesn’t know if that’s what was effecting it or if I just didn’t have any pain.

Basically, I may or may not have to have surgery on the left hip.  At this point in time, it’s a no.  He said he wants me to continue to strengthen my core and glutes, and if something hurts me don’t do it.

I don’t know if it’s psychosomatic, but this past week I’ve felt really good.  Who knows how long it will last?  I’ve also decided I’m going to try running soon.  My Feldenkrais instructor thinks I will be fine with running, she’s an ultra-marathoner so I trust her judgment.  I figured if I’m going to hurt anyway, I might as well hurt doing what I love.  I will ease into it of course, but I’m excited about it.  I haven’t ran in TWO YEARS.

I had a dream last night that I ran a 5k.  It was a very vivid dream.  I was running against 2 elementary kids and I had this life raft around my neck that was weighing me down.  I finally got rid of it and then the wind was blowing against me, so I was having to claw at the ground ever so often to propel myself forward.  I ended up winning the race, running at a 5 minute pace.  That’s a dream in itself.  Even in my tip top shape there would be no way that would happen.  It was a great dream and I think there’s no need for interpretation there.  I’m ready to move forward and all these things that have been weighing me down need to get lost so I can do so.

I’ve also continued my house hunt. While it is stressful, it’s exciting.

I read a really interesting article the other day, here it is for your viewing pleasure:
Two Year Long Study: Minimalist shoe and increase arch height.

OH and I’ve also failed miserably at the 100 Happy Days thingie, so here are some random pictures of my happiness.
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1 Month Paleo and More..

Well so far I’ve been living a paleo lifestyle for 1 month now. It’s getting easier to maneuver with my food and planning. I honestly haven’t noticed a lot of joint pain decreasing or anything, but I’m also still eating tomatoes and nightshades. I’ve read that you have to eliminate those for awhile too if you have joint and muscle pain. I’m not sure if I can give up tomatoes just yet. I eat them in almost every meal.

I do feel better though. TMI: My bowel movements haven’t been this regular in awhile. I have more energy. I don’t crave sweets or bread nearly as much as I used to. I’ve lost weight and I don’t feel as bloated. I think it can only go up from here.

I know I haven’t talked about it lately, but I am still doing my Feldenkrais and Muscle Activation Technique weekly. I’m still having hip and QL pain, but not to the extent that I was. I’m not sure if it’s because these two things are working, or if it’s because my MAT guy took away pretty much every exercise that I was doing. I wonder if I start doing my strength stuff again if all the pain will come back?

Either way in 2 weeks I will find out if I have a labral tear in my other hip. I’m hoping for the best, but I’ve been through this once and I think I have the strength to do it again if I need to.

There’s a website that has started this thing called 100 Happy Days. I figure it wouldn’t hurt to do it, to remind me how good I do have it and what I am thankful for, and what makes me happy. I decided to post it weekly on here since I have this blog and all. My pictures are in no particular order on what makes me the happiest.  I’ll start posting next week.

 

Paleo. First Week.

I won’t be doing a weekly thing for my paleo lifestyle, but I thought since it was the first week that I should write about it.

After I got over the amount of preparation that had to be done and learned about the art and value of leftovers, it got a bit easier.

As far as detox symptoms have gone, there were a few days where I felt like I was in a fog and moving in slow motion.  I couldn’t really think clear.  That was kind of an issue because I was working those days.  Luckily I didn’t have any really sick patients that I had to think fast with.  WARNING TMI:  I have been having more diarrhea, which I’m not sure if it’s just because of detox, my diet changing, or increased consumption of fat.  Maybe a combo of all three.

I have started feeling more energetic.  I know sleep is very important so I’m trying to get adequate amounts of sleep, especially when I’m working.

No relief of the joint pain yet, which I don’t expect to go away until probably a month into it.

I even stayed away from cornbread, sour cream, and cheese last night.  It honestly wasn’t that difficult.  The other day at work, a patient’s family brought cupcakes, and I didn’t even want one.  My sugar cravings have definitely diminished.  I think that might be to my supplementation of Magnesium though.  I still have an occasional dark chocolate.  I won’t give that up.  I just won’t.

 

Here We Go Again

So much going on, so little time.  I’m sorry I’ve been unable to update.

 

My right hip is fantastic.  I have very little problem with it.  Sometimes my right adductor gets a little tight, but nothing like it was.  I’m not sure if it’s due to my therapies or what, but I’m not going to complain.

 

My left hip, on the other hand, sucks.  I was worried this would happen.  I’ve been doing MAT for over a month now and I’ve done a couple of Feldenkrais sessions.  Both, I feel, are very beneficial and helpful to me right now, but I no longer think my left hip is compensating.

 

My left hip almost always hurts.  Last week, a couple of nights while laying down for bed, it hurt so bad that I had to take some leftover surgery pain pills and ibuprofen.  This is a huge thing for me because I hated taking the pain pills even after surgery.  I hate taking ibuprofen, period.  I finally just emailed my surgeon’s PA and asked her what she thought.  I have my 6 month follow up in April (by then technically it will be about 8 months).  She wants me to do X-Rays and a MRA (Magnetic Resonance Arthrogram, they inject dye into the joint and do a MRI) before my appointment so at least I’ll get some answers the day of instead of waiting a week.

The house hunting is on hold for now because of this.  Originally I was going to put off surgery if I needed it until next year, but I seriously cannot take much more of this pain.  I’m SO done with this hip stuff.  My friend Jessica said, “Hey, at least you only have 2 hips.”  That’s the bright side of it, I guess.   I’m praying for it just being compensation, but I really don’t think that’s the case.

 

Pre-op photo taken from my blog about my right hip.  The left bone structure looks virtually the same.

 

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I’ve made some nutrition changes.  I’ve started doing paleo, although it’s hard since I’m back and forth from house to house.  I’m doing it to help rid my body of inflammation.  I was talking to my MAT guy about it, and turns out he does paleo too.  He said he feels great doing it. (He has had 2 hip labral tear surgeries and he’s a personal trainer, and very fit.)  I trust he knows what he’s talking about too.

First “real” Paleo Meal.  Hamburger w/onions, Sweet potato wedges and Roasted Brussel Sprouts in Coconut Oil. Yum!
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I have also started supplementing with Magnesium.  I take “Natural Calm” and so far it seems to help with some muscle tightness.  I was listening to a podcast that even if you eat a healthy diet, that most people (80% or so) are magnesium deficient.  Our soil is so devoid of nutrients that even if you did eat healthy foods, then you still probably aren’t getting what you need.  My sister in law has started taking it too and it has helped her rest better, her muscles are less tight, and I think it’s helped her restless leg at night.

 

I’ll continue to update as soon as I know more.  Seems like a never ending story.