This past year has been a rough one to say the least.  I never even think about my hip anymore, it’s like it was never hurt.  I am so glad I had the surgery to fix it, and do not regret it one bit.

I was talking to my Feldenkrais instructor about my goals and what I wanted to do once my ankle heals.  The only thing that physically hurt me when I started running again were my feet going numb, which is due to my extremely tight calves.  Other than that, running was going great.  Cardiovascular-wise I was holding in there, doing longer bouts of running, doing hills, and sprints.

I never really thought that I would want to do a marathon.  I am happy with doing half marathons.  Heck, I would be happy to do a 5k right now, but I’m thinking about in the future.

My feldenkrais instructor overcame a huge disability, doctors saying she wouldn’t walk and now she runs ultra marathons, and places in them.  If that isn’t motivation enough that you can do anything you set your mind to, I don’t know what is!

In the near future after my ankle heals and I’m cleared to workout besides doing upper body and core, I want to get back to running (obviously).  I have a couple of personal training sessions at the gym I still need to do, and I would like to get back to my yoga, cycling, and weight lifting.

In the distant future, I want to set my body up and be well prepared to start running half marathons again.  I want to eventually do at least ONE marathon after tackling a few half marathons.

People don’t understand me, at least the people who aren’t runners or want to be active.  I somewhat get it, I mean someone actually wants to sweat and run when nobody is chasing them?  I look forward to the day when I can get up at 6:00am on a Saturday or Sunday morning and run with my fellow Landrunners or run at 6:00pm on a Thursday night in the hot & humid weather of Oklahoma with the Red Coyote people.  I had started doing that, along with running Tuesday evenings at the OKC River with some awesome running folk.

For about 3 days after I broke my ankle, I was wallowing in my sadness.  I just couldn’t understand why these things kept happening, why couldn’t it happen to someone who hates working out?  I was bitter (again).  I decided to look at things in a different way.  Things can always, ALWAYS be worse. This is just another hurdle in life that I have to jump over, and hopefully not break anything else while doing so.

Look to the future.  Have a plan.  Work It Out.

I can move beyond this and get stronger.  I will.


What’s Next?

I hate to say that I was a little naive about this surgery, even though I researched close to 2 years about it.  I mistakingly thought that most of my issues would be solved by the surgery and then I could start back to running at around 3 months.

It’s almost 5 months post op and I can’t even begin to think about running.  I’ve been struggling to find answers about my muscle imbalances and ways to fix them.  They are causing me a whole different kind of pain & discomfort, which I’m afraid is from the years of compensation for my tear.

My joint pain is gone, that much I am relieved about.  I am able to aqua jog, which is not the same as running and I look like an idiot doing it, but it has benefits.

My issues currently are my tight (right op side) adductors.  My (left) QL, SI joint, TFL, and IT band are almost always tight and hurting.  I feel like my SI joint slips in and out way too easily.  I strengthen, I do core work, I foam roll and roll on a lacrosse ball, but something isn’t activating.

I’m going to be trying two new things in the next couple of weeks.

The first thing is MAT or “Muscle Activation Technique”.  You can read about it here, if you are interested.  I’m afraid some of my muscles have shut down, making the stronger ones stronger and the weaker ones, weak and tight.  I actually don’t have to travel far to get this.

The second this is Bodywork.  I contacted Erik Dalton who is also in OKC, but is booked way past April.  He referred me to someone else that is good and hopefully I can see her soon.  To learn more about bodywork, you can click here.

I’ll update and tell you whether either of these things are working for me. I feel as if I can just get my pelvis stabilized just a little bit more, then I can really focus on running and getting my cardio fitness back.

Frustrating, but things could be worse.

Here’s something that I cannot get enough of… it makes me smile every time.


Unstable Strength (Post Op 4 Months)

Technically I won’t be 4 months post op until this Thursday, but I figured I might as well update.

I feel strong, or at least that I’m getting stronger.  All the exercises I’ve been doing for my PT has really helped my glutes and hips.

I feel unstable.  How can you feel strong, but unstable?  Well I can.  I feel like my pelvis and SI joint pop in and out with too much ease. Only on my left side though (my good side).  My right side actually feels wonderful and I don’t think about it too much.  Every now and then after work or being on my feet, I can feel the swelling begin and sometimes my adductors get tight, but other than that, it was nothing like before.

I think maybe with continuing doing my core stuff will make my SI joint more stable, at least that’s what I’m hoping.

If anyone is curious, this is what I’m doing as far as my exercises go:

– 20 minutes on stationary bike or 15 minutes elliptical
– Foam roller (mainly both adductors and TFL/IT band, sometimes quads)
– Stretches (quads, adductors, hamstring, TFL/IT band)
– Quadruped (
On hands and knees rocking back & forth into child’s pose x 20)
– Hip Triangles 4 lb weights on ankles *leg straight *leg bent 2 sets of 10 (I tried to find a video or picture on the internet, but couldn’t find one.)
– Hip Extension 4 lb weights on ankles 2 sets of 10
– Balance board squats, 2 sets of 10
– Wall squats with exercise ball, 2 sets of 15
– Bridges with exercise ball, 2 sets of 20 (this burns!)
– Planks (various times, how many I feel like.)
– Reverse lunges, 2 sets of 10
– Walking Lunges with medicine ball
– Stool scoots with resistance (At PT only)
– Ball rebounder with foam wobble pad 3 sets of 10 (PT only)

Thrilling isn’t it?

Eventually I think I’ll figure my muscles out.  My pelvis definitely does not feel stable enough to try and start running yet.  I’m not ready and neither are my joints.


2014 Goals

I decided to post some goals I have for 2014 instead of whine about my body today.  This way, I hope I can go back to them when I’m feeling low and look ahead instead of where I am.

1. Run – Whether it be 1 mile or 10 miles, if I can just run any miles without pain, I will be happy.

2. Buy a home – I have never been settled.  I have moved SO many times, even more than this list.  This goal might not actually come until the beginning of 2015 because this year I will be needing to…

3. Save Money – I don’t even want to tell you how much I’ve spent in medical bills this year.  Even with hitting my maximum out of pocket on my insurance and having to pay out of pocket for physical therapy every visit because my insurance only covers $2000 worth of it.  (By the way if you don’t know how much that is in actual physical therapy visits, it’s about 12-13 visits, 9 which I was required to do before surgery so that left me with very little.), my actual income and savings have dwindled to a new low.  Plus being off work 3 months doesn’t help.

4. Pay off Student Loans – I don’t have much left, but they’ve been lingering and I’d rather get them out of my sight.

5. Get Back in Shape- I guess this goes along with running, but I would like to start working out in the gym again and losing the weight that I put on during this 2 year long ordeal.  I’m not doing this for you, or for her, or for those people over there, or anybody but just for myself.

6. Adopt another dog– Dexter needs a brother or a sister.  There are so many poor dogs that have been abandoned and need a good home.  I can’t imagine what would’ve happened to my precious Dexter boy (or me) if I didn’t get him when I did.

On that note, I leave you with a collection of Dexter pictures for your viewing pleasure.


Spinning to Work

I am not biking to work, that’s not what this post is about.  I’m pretty sure that my patients wouldn’t want a sweaty nurse taking care of them, although on a rough night that can happen.  Just being honest.  Today is my first day shift, 7am to 7pm!  I will be sure to post all about it tomorrow…

This weekend, my friend Scott and I took a free pass at Gold’s Gym and went to a Spin Class and Vinyasa Flow Yoga.

Everyone was super nice in the spinning class, and the instructor was so helpful when it came to getting my bike prepared.  The lady next to me asked, “So why did you pick the hardest class for your first spin class?” I said, “I had no idea this was the hardest one?”  She said, “Oh honey.”

I figured she was exaggerating.  She was not.  It kicked my butt and also made it a little sore afterward.  I surprisingly have a good amount of cardio fitness left, even though I haven’t been able to run.  It was a hour of hardcore spinning and afterward we went to yoga to stretch it out.  Since the spin class was over at 10 and the yoga class started at 10, we were a little late.   We missed the first part of yoga, so I just couldn’t get into it at all.  It was nice to be able to stretch my legs though.

I’m excited to join that gym, they offer a lot of good classes!

Have you ever tried a spin class?  Did you enjoy it?

Gym Time

I currently am a member of a gym that I don’t go to.  I mainly signed up for that gym because of the classes and the pool.  What I forgot to take a look at was the actual class times and the fact that I hate swimming.

Since I can’t run and it’s depressing me, I need to do some classes or something to feel better.  I’ve heard from a lot of my friends that Gold’s Gym has some awesome spinning and body pump classes.  Plus… they have Yoga and Zumba!  Instead of being a douche and not looking at the times of classes beforehand, I checked it out and it will fit nicely into my new day schedule.  Plus it’ll be $10 less a month than what I pay now.   Luckily, I do not have a contract with my current gym so I will be saying sayonara to it soon.

Oh and I went and got all domestic yesterday by making “Pumpkin Chocolate Chip Bars” derived from Chocolate Covered Katie’s recipe, minus the cream cheese, adding chocolate chips (of course), and using spelt flour.  I took it over to the BF’s house to eat because even though it’s healthy, I’m pretty sure if I ate all of it, I would gain 80 lbs.

Do you have a favorite class you like to participate in?

Add A Little Epsom Salt and VOILA!

I ran yesterday for the first time in a week since my doctor recommended I take a week off due to my quad/hip/adductor issues.  I am supposed to take it easy for awhile so my goal pace was between 11:30 and 12:00.  Well wouldn’t you know that I was feeling really good and I had loads of energy.  It’s a shame to waste running days like that doing things easier, but I have to be smart this time around.

I ran at 7:00pm and it was only 90* with a little breeze. It was actually quite pleasant.  I had to keep checking my garmin to make sure I was staying at my target pace because I wanted to go faster, but knew I needed to take it easy.  The last mile I noticed some tightness creeping up on my right adductor.  I glanced at my watch and I was running at 9:30 pace!  First of all, where did that come from?  Second of all, I’m an idiot.  So much for taking it easy.  I slowed down, but I was sad that I could run that cardiovascular-wise, but not physically due to my damn leg.

I know I whine all of the time, but I really wish my right leg/hip would feel normal like my left leg/hip.  Just be normal for poop’s sake!  //whining over//

My splits ended up being 11:56, 11:52, and 10:53.  (I could not go any slower on that last mile.)    I did end my run watching a BEAUTIFUL sunset on the lake.  I tried to capture it the best that I could.

When I got home I stretched, foam rolled and took an Epsom Salt bath.
I used to take these a lot when I first had my hip injury in December and they worked wonders.  You get a pretty warm/hot bath and put 2-3 cups of Epsom Salt (you can get this at pretty much any store.)  You soak in the bath tub for 20 minutes at the maximum.  Be careful if this is your first time because the Epsom Salt baths are pretty potent, so you may want to start out soaking for only 10 minutes.

The benefits for Epsom Salt baths if you are curious:
– Epsom salt is high in magnesium and sulfate and it is easily absorbed through the skin.  Magnesium is very important to our body it helps with muscle control, brain function, and eliminating toxins.  Sulfate aids in production of joint proteins and the formation of brain tissue.
– Improves your heart health.
 Reduces inflammation and joint & muscle pain.
– Stress reliever.
– Helps relieve headaches and migraines.

Have you ever tried an Epsom Salt Bath?  What other homeopathic things do you use for recovery?