Spinning to Work

I am not biking to work, that’s not what this post is about.  I’m pretty sure that my patients wouldn’t want a sweaty nurse taking care of them, although on a rough night that can happen.  Just being honest.  Today is my first day shift, 7am to 7pm!  I will be sure to post all about it tomorrow…

This weekend, my friend Scott and I took a free pass at Gold’s Gym and went to a Spin Class and Vinyasa Flow Yoga.

Everyone was super nice in the spinning class, and the instructor was so helpful when it came to getting my bike prepared.  The lady next to me asked, “So why did you pick the hardest class for your first spin class?” I said, “I had no idea this was the hardest one?”  She said, “Oh honey.”

I figured she was exaggerating.  She was not.  It kicked my butt and also made it a little sore afterward.  I surprisingly have a good amount of cardio fitness left, even though I haven’t been able to run.  It was a hour of hardcore spinning and afterward we went to yoga to stretch it out.  Since the spin class was over at 10 and the yoga class started at 10, we were a little late.   We missed the first part of yoga, so I just couldn’t get into it at all.  It was nice to be able to stretch my legs though.

I’m excited to join that gym, they offer a lot of good classes!

Have you ever tried a spin class?  Did you enjoy it?


Freaking Fantastic Friday

Last night was the end of my night shift career.  I’m not going to lie, I was pretty sad because I am going to miss my night shift crew.  I’m going to miss the sort of “laid back” atmosphere it has.  I am actually kind of nervous to go to day shift, because I’ve never worked day shift in my 3 1/2 years of nursing.  It will definitely be a busier and different kind of shift, but I’m ready to feel normal.  I think I forgot what it was like to not be tired.

Things that have caught my eye on the Interwebs:
These girls are amazing, I can’t wait to see more of their videos.  There is something so pure in their voices, I hope fame doesn’t corrupt them.

 30 Black & White Photos That Will Haunt Your Dreams (No Joke)

10 Words You Need To Stop Misspelling

And now here is picture of my cute dog… Have a good weekend!


Bathing in Blood & Cleaning Poop…That’s My Job.

I think some people have this glamorous idea of nursing when they start nursing school.  You’ll make a ton of money, you’ll be respected by all, it’s cake work, and you practically go to work in pajama-like clothing (<—that’s what sold me.)   When you get into the nursing field, you realize that it’s the opposite.

There aren’t that many perks of nursing, and let me also assure you, I don’t spend my time all Grey’s Anatomy/flirting with coworkers/eating in the cafeteria… even though it DOES happen.  It’s really hard sometimes and that’s coming from someone who works in an awesome hospital that treats employees, patients, and family like actual people and not just money.

For a good part of the time you are under appreciated by patients and their families, belittled by doctors, rare bathroom breaks, shoveling food down your throat, working 12 hour shifts, dealing with a great deal of other’s bodily fluids such as blood, snot, vomit, and lots of poop, and charting charting charting.
 You do get the reward of being appreciated sometimes, helping to save someone’s life, having a great team to work with, and a lot of days off in a row (if scheduled right.)

The thing is, I’ve seen people that graduate from nursing school or just other nurses that got into it for the wrong reasons.  If you don’t love your job, or at least enjoy it a little, then you’re in the wrong profession and you need to leave.  I’ve learned you cannot make people genuinely care about other people, and that’s a HUGE part of our job.  I’ve had coworkers that I wouldn’t let near my family member if they were in the hospital because I know they wouldn’t give two shits about them.source

Real life Nursing:

Your patient is screaming curse words at you and climbing out of bed, and you’ve only been at work an hour.

Your patient is uncontrollably vomiting and having liquid stools to the point of where it’s dripping out of the bed.

Your patient is on the call light every 15 minutes for 12 hours wanting to get out of the bed and into the chair, walk the halls, go to the bathroom, along with being rude to you the entire time, and you have two more patients to care for.source

I just encourage anyone that is getting into the medical field to research your career that you want to pursue, shadow a nurse for a couple of days, and talk to someone who works in that field.  I’ve seen too many people who get into it “for the money” when in reality, the pay isn’t that great for the amount of things you do.  You have to love your job and care about the well being of others.  If not, you will be a miserable person.  (This goes for anybody in any field for that matter.)

It’s not easy, but a lot of jobs aren’t easy either.  I do love my job and I love getting to care for people who need me. I just want other who get into this field to feel the same or at least have something to give of themselves.

I’ll get off my soapbox now, thanks for listening.

Conversations with Coworkers

Last night, my coworker came up to me while I was in my patient’s room busily working…  This is our conversation:

CW- Brandi, you look nice tonight, there’s something different about you.

Me- Thanks?  I don’t know?

CW- You have a “freshness” about you.

Me- Well, I wore makeup tonight.

CW- No, you’ve worn makeup before.

Me- I brushed my hair…

CW-  That’s it!  It looks good.

This is my life.



Normal Life Is Around The Corner!

Remember how my body hates me and my Crohn’s wants to act up all of the time?  Also, how I work night shift and my body doesn’t like it either?

I talked to my boss yesterday about going to a day shift job so I can get my body in line.  She agreed and I am going to day shift starting October 14th!  I cannot tell you what a sense of relief this is to me!

Yes, day shift will be vastly different from night shift, but I think I will get used to the difference.  My body will take a bit to readjust to a normal schedule, but I cannot fathom how much better I will feel.

Thank you all who have been sending thoughts and prayers my way!   They were definitely heard!


I’m pretty sure that I’m a hypochondriac.  Well… I know I am.

So far I’m convinced I have:
– A Stress fracture
– A Hip Labral Tear
– Arthritis
– Plantar Fasciitis
– Hypothyroidism (which is true, I have the lab test to prove it now.)

I know it doesn’t help that I’m a nurse, so once I see one patient with an ailment, I believe I have it.  I will then research it and convince myself that I do, indeed suffer from testicular cancer.

It does suck getting older though.  I can definitely feel it more so now than I could 10 even 5 years ago.  I’m only at the ripe old age of 27 (this month), but I’m not getting any younger.  This night shift career has aged my body significantly as well.source

I’m sorry this hasn’t been more of an extensive post.  I’ve been so tired and beat up after work that all I can really do is eat, shower, and sleep.  Like I said, hopefully a change will come soon.  A change where I can be among the normal living people and not be a zombie.

Night Shift Life

Since I am still pissed about my trigger point blog being destroyed, I’m trying to build up the motivation to write it over again.

If you will notice, or maybe you haven’t, my running has been lacking.  It’s not because I’m injured and it’s not because I don’t love running, I’ll tell you that much.  I am just constantly exhausted.  Don’t get me wrong,  I understand completely that everyone has busy lives, working weird hours and children to raise, and yet they still find time to workout.

I have worked night shift for 3 years.  I work 12 hour shifts from 7pm to 7am. Some nights are high stress, and some nights are pretty easy.  Regardless, I am always tired.  I don’t know what it’s like to feel normal anymore.  My mind always feels foggy, I cannot lose weight no matter how healthy I eat, and my Crohn’s Disease has started to really not like this night shift thing.  When my GI tract isn’t digesting how it’s supposed and getting the vitamins and nutrients it needs, it adds to the exhaustion.  Contrary to popular belief, diarrhea isn’t a great time.

When I was on vacation and I was sleeping and eating normally for about 2 weeks, my body liked it.  My GI system liked it.  I could think clearly, my muscles didn’t ache as much and I actually had…. energy.  Energy?  Such a novel idea for my body.

The first 2 years that I worked night shift, I honestly didn’t feel it.  I felt pretty good and I didn’t understand why some people had such a difficult time with it.  I could flip back to a somewhat normal schedule on my days off and be okay.  Yes, I was still tired, but not a significant amount.

I don’t know what changed after the 2nd year, but this past year has been a nightmare.  I can’t fathom doing this for another year honestly, and I have no idea how some nurses have done this for 20+ years.  Kudos to you for not falling apart, because I am on the verge of it.  This is why I have decided to make some changes soon.  I can’t continue to live and feel like this.  I want to feel…good.  I want to workout normally.  I want to run without feeling like I have to push through dead legs EVERY. SINGLE. TIME.

I want my life to stop being like this:

and be more like this: